Rapid City, SD
Yesterday I left Sioux Falls around 11:00am and headed to Palisades State Park. There has been snow everywhere I have been, but the roads have been cleared, except for the roads in Palisades State Park. I pulled into the parking lot and that is about as far as I got. I was too afraid of getting stuck in the snow, so I left and started heading to Rapid City.
The rolling hills, as I call them, were covered in snow and looked peaceful. There were many cows, round bales of hay and pheasants. As the sun went down, it was majestic. I stopped at a couple shops, one being Wall Drug, which I figured out was an old drug store in the town of Wall and now it is apparently famous. I also stopped at a scenic pull off point in the middle of nowhere. I got to Rapid City around 6:00pm, and there was a one hour time difference.
I saw a few rainbows during the drive, which was pretty cool. Not full rainbows, but sections. One of them I saw all the colors, even purple.
"The rainbow is an extraordinary symbol of following our hearts desire and purpose. To get to the end of a rainbow is a symbol for the celebration of that fulfillment. Rainbow symbolism has such a powerful meaning to each of us and graciously bestows the energy of blessings. The symbolism of rainbows intuitively tells us to hold onto hope, to believe beyond a shadow of a doubt that sacred blessings open to us when we are following our hearts desire. And the symbol of the rainbow tells us that we are guided to our hearts desire when we open to spirit and let it guide us."
Today the plan is to go see Mount Rushmore and Crazy Horse Memorial and then head to Denver. I am looking forward to being outside, walking around and exploring. I am sick of being in the car and I am looking forward to being stationary in Colorado for a few days. Herold is too. He did not want to get in the car yesterday and was acting odd for most of the day. I think he is wondering why we are not going home- why are we in the car so much sleeping in a different bed every night. I feel bad that I can't explain it to him. I try to play with him and let him explore outside as much as I can. At the scenic point in the middle of nowhere, I just let him walk around wherever he wanted unleashed. We were the only ones there. When he was done, he came up to me and walked me to the car - probably because he was cold and ready to get cozy.
I have enjoyed seeing different things, meeting people from different places, seeing God's country... But I know this is not real life. It is a once in a lifetime experience that I am grateful to be having, but this will end - the distractions will end. And I don't know what my life is going to look like in the coming weeks or months. It is incommodious. I miss Kacey, naturally. I wonder how he is doing and if he is ok. I wonder if he wonders about me. There have been many distractions so far and I haven't let my heart be sad since the first day. I know it will take time and there is nothing anyone can do or say to stop the hurt - I just have to feel it, walk through it, and get to the other side. I know all these things intellectually and the hardest thing for me is that going through the emotional bullshit takes longer than figuring something out, like a multiplication problem. Processing the emotions is not about figuring them out so they can pass. At least this is what I have come to find. It is about allowing myself to feel them, recognize when I am repressing them, which is usually when I am getting agitated for what seems to be no reason.
I let go of a lot recently. Almost everything in my life, actually. It is all for the better, yes. But that doesn't help me process it any faster. If I eat cheeseburgers everyday for a year and then decide to switch to salad because it is better for me, it takes time to adjust and it is uncomfortable (and who actually picks a salad over a cheeseburger?!). I guess it is not up to me how long the emotions take to process. Well yes and no. If I feel, then they can pass. If I repress and then feel, they will take much longer to pass. Using logic to try to figure out emotions just makes for a long day of thinking. So let go and let God, right? Live and let live.
How dark it is before the dawn...
The Minnesota River is in the picture above.
Rainbow pictures are above and below.
This is one above is probably my most favorite picture so far :)
This panoramic is awesome and captures the overall idea of what was out there, but not the full majesty and the feeling out there. I think this one will be printed and framed.
I have wondered if I would see a huge dinosaur like this and I did!!
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